I change my mind a lot. When it comes to creativity, I can be a little fickle.

I announced- not too long ago- of the new story series I was launching on the blog… “Grace Trials”… well, I’m not anymore!

Big surprise there?! Okay, I should turn the vain glory down a notch, right?

I was looking through some of my notes from my devotional time with God… Based on what God has laid on my heart, working on “Grace Trials” to fit the platform of my personal blog, is not my primary focus as of now.

As the Prophet Samuel said… obedience is greater than sacrifice…

“Delayed Obedience” and “Disobedience” both start with “D” and they are serious downgrades as to what is God’s best for life.

I’m on a “Faith Grow” journey right now… And I’m not saying I’m collecting more faith or getting more, but I’m growing the faith I already have…

You know, it’s like a seed. A seed to a tree will become that tree, if all the conditions are right. If the seed is planted in good soil, deep down but not too deep, if the seed gets sufficient watering, and if the seed germinates and sprouts roots and builds a strong extensive root system, and then breaks through to the surface, and gets sun, well… need I go on with this massive run-on sentence- the SEED GROWS into A TREE!

I’m convinced that our faith is like a tree. All we need to start is faith the size of a muster seed, and when we apply the Word of God, and heed to God’s voice, and build a healthy life balancing the spiritual and the practical aspects of our lives, our seedling of faith grows into a huge beautiful tree.

Now the question is… is our faith to be like a tree or are we the tree?

If true faith is believing and believing is taking action, and who we are is reflected in what we do, and if what we think determines who we are… then we most definitely are trees… right?

My point is simply this… I want to be like the tree described in Psalm 1.

[The Way of the Righteous and the Wicked

1 Blessed is the man

who walks not in the counsel of the wicked,

nor stands in the way of sinners,

nor sits in the seat of scoffers;

2  but his delight is in the law of the Lord,

and on his law he meditates day and night.

3  He is like a tree

planted by streams of water

that yields its fruit in its season,

and its leaf does not wither.

In all that he does, he prospers.

4  The wicked are not so,

but are like chaff that the wind drives away.

5  Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment,

nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous;

6  for the Lord knows the way of the righteous,

but the way of the wicked will perish. (ESV)]

The key to being that tree is not following the ways of the wicked (I take that wicked as “worldly ways”). Another key is being in the word of God day and night. Not just reading it, but living it.

These two keys sound simplistic and essentially are simple.

I could go on about this concept of being like a tree, but that is a lot to unpack.

I’ll wrap this post by adding, it is impossible to mature into the measure of faith Christ gave to us through His life, death, and resurrection without following His living word. Jesus is the one who was, and who is, and who is to come. The Bible displays various believers, at different stages in their faith, but they all had the same goal, to follow after God while living in a world driven by selfish, corrupt people. No one can be forced into believing in God, that concept violates free will, but anyone can witness the power and glory of the Living God, and that only gets done IF:

  1. We are sustained by a never ending source (streams of water).
  2. We are productive and nurturing others from what we produce in our lives (yield its fruit in its season).
  3.  We are strong in times of change (its leaf does not wither).
  4. We excel in excellence and even when we do things we’re not good at, we are massively successful (in all that he does, he prospers).

I don’t know about you, but I’m ready for a “Faith Grow”!

Friendly reminder, check out my New Adult, Romance, Chapter-by-Chapter-In-The-Making-Novel on LITNET. Here’s the link: https://litnet.com/en/reader/a-digital-age-courtship-b106691?c=928921

A Digital Age Courtship

Much love,



In 2 Samuel, Chapter 11, records the account of King David’s affair. I read this chapter this morning, after I started to pose a question on Facebook…

“Why do we put our sins on display and say we’re only human, and use our faulty humanity as an excuse to treat others in a worldly fashion and not a kingdom fashion?”

My point was to point out I think we use our everyday, cyclical sin struggles to brand ourselves as “wretched sinners saved by grace”.

King David was my example. I was lying in bed, in my comfy pjs, holding my cellphone above my head, as my thumbs typed what I considered to be the next profound word for any believer about to catch my post on their news feed today!

I thought about how hardly anyone knew what David did, for the handful that did, most of them could only speculate about the mess David made. And somehow I rabbit trailed into talking about the sin of gossip, and then admitted a lot of what I gleaning came from a sermon I heard Sunday about revering God.

I got zinged in the heart. Like, you know when the Holy Spirit is unveiling what once was a mystery to you, because you didn’t understand, and now this information becomes revelation and it is like you can see this beautiful piece of artwork now? That was happening as I lied in bed, thumb-typing a great Facebook post, but I stopped when I nearly finished.

Was I right about a handful of people knowing about David’s affair with Bathsheba?

That of course, led me to go into Bible College Student mode. I looked up the scripture. I picked it apart making sure I took from the text and I didn’t spin my own opinion based on my assumptions from the text.

I read past chapter 11, I read 12 and 13. I want to make sure I covered all of it.

Three things that stuck out to me where this:

  1. God was displeased with David (but God didn’t go looking for another king).
  2. David cried out for mercy, but when he didn’t get what he wanted from God, he moved forward and continued to live his life.
  3. God took the first son David had with Bathsheba, but when David and Bathsheba had Solomon, God told the prophet Nathan that He loved Solomon and wanted the baby boy to be named Jedidiah.

When I read that God was displeased with David, but I think about how still credits David as a man after His own heart…

I got teary-eyed. I realized that the worst thing that I’ve ever done, in my own eyes, God may not have liked when I did that, but I didn’t lose my place in God’s heart.

What do I mean by the latter phrase?

If David were the President today, and TMZ broke the story about everything President David did… the church would be quick to JUDGE David with a CRITICAL SPIRIT. We would QUESTION his SALVATION, and the POSTURE of HIS HEART. We would never look at President David the same way again. We wouldn’t trust him like we had prior to hearing about the scandal. Come time for re-election, if there was a slightly better candidate, we would vote for someone else, because our displeasure of President David would become disapproval.

We know God didn’t like David’s actions in that moment, but we know God didn’t disapprove of David… David has so much unmerited favor it is evident why Saul wanted to kill him! LOL!

Of course, my Bible-Checking turned into a deep devotional time with the LORD. One moment I was reading a page from “The Happy Intercessor” by Beni Johnson. The next moment I was reading a few pages in “God Where Are You?” by John Bevere. (Two books I highly recommend for reading to grow in spiritual maturity.) The point came where I sat in awe of how God works, of how He loves, and how wonderfully, amazing He is…

My mind was blown, of how everything He took me to, from the Bible, to the books, to articles and resources on the internet– were not only connected to things He’s been talking to me about for the past 9 months, but the pages of the books He led me to glance at, brought up scriptures used in the sermon I heard Sunday night. (I’ve had these books for a while but I hadn’t finished reading them. The pages that I read in amazement of their relation to the sermon I heard, I had never read before today.)

It is after I have devotional times like these… I am confident God is able to anything, all I have to do is trust Him and follow His lead.

Now, if you’re anything like me… you’re wondering, what does this whole post have to do with False Humility?

Grace is a free gift (Ephesians 2). Every spiritual blessing God desired for us to have is already given to us (Ephesians 2). Paul said we were sinners saved by grace and we are now the righteousness of Christ Jesus (Romans 5). We are saved by grace and where sin abounds grace covers a multitude of sins (Paul said that). Our sins are removed as far as the east is from the west (the Psalms). Our sins are tossed into the sea of forgiveness (Malachi).

I’m not condoning “greasy grace” is okay. Where you can do all these worldly, fleshly things, and still be saved and die and go to eternity with God. John pointed out that false preaching in his first letter.

But if you believe the lie, that you’re a wretched sinner, that you are prone to making mistakes, and you will never get this Christian walk figured out. That is inviting the enemy to tempt you with your vices, and because you’re not renewed in your mind (thinking/beliefs), you will never get free or take forever to get free.

In the Psalms, it appeared David said some arrogant things, “My enemies are Your enemies God… My glory is the glory of the LORD…” Wait… was it that arrogant or was he just speaking as a child of God?

Yes, David had some down moments… Like he wondered why he was even born. He acknowledged he needed his heart to be cleaned out and purified… but frequently, he went to God, sang about his woes, and moved on…

Do you know what I love about David’s adultery scandal or really rather what I love that came out of it? David got rebuked for his actions, he owned up to his mistakes and corrected what he could, and he moved forward in his life not committing adultery again. He stuck to the wives and the concubines he already had…

Skimming over the more than one wife thing… David got delivered and stayed delivered! He lived out his life blemish free from the stain of adultery on his life. (Well actually, he got cursed by God and his house was subject to that curse until he died, but David didn’t complain about that curse or use the curse as an excuse to sin again.)

I think we live in a state of false humility when we are quick to say “I’m a sinner saved by grace”. I think it lets us settle for getting by, instead of crucifying our flesh daily, and actually having to pour ourselves out at the feet of Jesus every day, so we can be who He called us to be in the earth.

Yes, God still wants us to be us. But He wants us to be the version of ourselves that thinks, speaks, and acts like Jesus would in any given situation. Paul told us in Ephesians to put on our new nature, and be done with our old nature which was a sinner, a gossiper, sexually immoral, a liar, wicked, unrighteous, etc…

The world sees the church as a bunch of bigots because people who are hateful, mean-spirited, fearful people used scripture to attack the sinners who don’t care or claim to know God. Jesus and other Biblical writers make it clear, when you belong to the Father, the world sees the Father in your words, in your actions, and at work in your life. The world will either be against you or join the Kingdom of God because of you operating in your new nature.

The new nature is just a down payment of the glorified beings we’ll be one day, and we will spend our whole lives becoming more like Jesus…

C.S. Lewis said, “Humility isn’t thinking less of yourself, it is thinking of yourself less.”

And if the church is so focused on what sinners we are and that we’re nothing and our sins are like dirty, used tampons to God (that is the modern equivalent of that filthy rags scripture in Isaiah)… then how can the light in us shine to bring others into God’s marvelous light? If we’re thinking on dark things, talking about dark things, and then doing dark things but saying we’re working on getting better… Where’s the selflessness?

How prideful for the church to have such self-pity? Frankly, it is down right immature.

How insulting is it to God that we declare the flaws of our sin-natured humanity is stronger in us than His transforming, life-giving, powerful grace in us restoring us to the spirit-driven-in-a-flesh-shell humanity He created us to be?

I’m going to close with this:

I can sing. Thanks to Valor Christian College, I can sing well. I used to fear being prideful, so when someone complimented my singing voice, I said, “To God be the glory, He gave it to me.” That is true. Not going to deny it and I’m not really afraid to confess it. Paul said in 1 Corinthians not to boast about what the Lord has done. When we point all the glory to God, after something we’ve done or we do for Him, and we do so to deflect our feelings of self-consciousness, or we need to validate we did a God-thing, we are acting out of our insecurities or shame, which is prideful.

Now, I just say thank you when I get a compliment. I love the compliments, but I don’t need them to affirm I can sing well. I don’t have to say God gave me the voice, because it goes without saying God created humanity, hence He created me, and I only sing worship music anyhow, so when I sing, all sorts of glory is going to Him.

In the following scripture Paul explains the humility Christ Jesus had, and encouraged believers to take on the humility of Christ. By looking to Christ Jesus as our example, trusting the words of edification to believers in the past, we can halt false humility and be transparent vessels to bear the witness of Christ Jesus in the earth. Not just by our words, but simply by the lives we live. Give your soul/mind a reset and renew it with the WORD of GOD.

Philippians 2 New Living Translation (NLT)

Have the Attitude of Christ

Is there any encouragement from belonging to Christ? Any comfort from his love? Any fellowship together in the Spirit? Are your hearts tender and compassionate? Then make me truly happy by agreeing wholeheartedly with each other, loving one another, and working together with one mind and purpose.

Don’t be selfish; don’t try to impress others. Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourselves. Don’t look out only for your own interests, but take an interest in others, too.

You must have the same attitude that Christ Jesus had.

Though he was God,[a]
    he did not think of equality with God
    as something to cling to.
Instead, he gave up his divine privileges[b];
    he took the humble position of a slave[c]
    and was born as a human being.
When he appeared in human form,[d]
    he humbled himself in obedience to God
    and died a criminal’s death on a cross.

Therefore, God elevated him to the place of highest honor
    and gave him the name above all other names,
10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
    in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
11 and every tongue declare that Jesus Christ is Lord,
    to the glory of God the Father.

Shine Brightly for Christ

12 Dear friends, you always followed my instructions when I was with you. And now that I am away, it is even more important. Work hard to show the results of your salvation, obeying God with deep reverence and fear. 13 For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him.

14 Do everything without complaining and arguing, 15 so that no one can criticize you. Live clean, innocent lives as children of God, shining like bright lights in a world full of crooked and perverse people. 16 Hold firmly to the word of life; then, on the day of Christ’s return, I will be proud that I did not run the race in vain and that my work was not useless. 17 But I will rejoice even if I lose my life, pouring it out like a liquid offering to God,[e] just like your faithful service is an offering to God. And I want all of you to share that joy. 18 Yes, you should rejoice, and I will share your joy.


Thank you for reading.

Much love,


Check out my safe-to-read-romance-novel-in-the-making on LitNet! (Click link below)


A Digital Age Courtship

Below, you will see the graphic for the blog’s next featured story:

Grace Trials


If you saw the post about Manuscript Monday, going into extensive detail about why I chose the story I selected, I mentioned a story I wrote called, “Girls of Grace”.

“Grace Trials” is “Girls of Grace” rebranded, revamped, an under-new-construction rewrite. I guess, this will be my revision quest and I’m inviting all of you along for the ride.

In the original “Girls of Grace”, it was about three girls who became friends through church. In all honesty, this story is slightly based on real life, but in totality it really isn’t.

Like, the main character is a little like me. One of her friends is a little like one of my strong-willed friends that battles depression. The main character’s other friend is this super-family-oriented-person who has OCD. All three of them go to a tiny, baptist church where everybody knows everybody.  Me and my two friends, all went to a tiny, baptist church where the three of us formed a friendship. Beyond that, that is as real as the story gets. Okay, most of the story takes place in the city where we all live…

But the main plot points, the scenarios that unfold, and events that take place… never happened to me or my friends in real life… to my knowledge.

This revamp, however, will be wildly different. I started the project in 2012. Seven years later, with the characters well developed and a plot with lots of options, the content will be richer.


Lauren Rae Tyler – 18, Melissa Grace Russell – 21, and Makayla Johnson – 17, are best friends that are closer to each other than sisters. Through all the trials life hurls them into, they rally to be there for one another and see each other overcome their tribulation. But they know they can’t obtain any victories without God’s grace.

Grace Trials may be the name of Lauren’s dad’s ranch and church, but the “Grace Trials” make up the casebook that proves God’s grace is for those who believe and cannot be saved, delivered, or set free without the free grace of God. (Okay, you’re right – the Bible has already done that, and proves so… It’s great!)


Yes, I want this story turned into a movie too! Executively-produced by Kirk Cameron. Pray with me y’all! (I’d accept working with David AR White too.)

It’s odd that I want to work with him so much… like I’m not a fan girl of his… I don’t really watch a lot of his ministry videos, nor have I seen any of his latest Christian Film Productions.

I just want to work with him. I think it would be cool!


This story will feature some hard to swallow material, but the topics shouldn’t be ignored and swept under the rug in the church anymore.


If you like it as you read it, share it with someone you think may enjoy it, or benefit from it in someway.


Is that someone who never had faith before, find faith in Jesus.

Yes, this may be a fictional story, with fictional characters, but the God of the Bible is the only God. Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life… and in this little piece of fiction, God can save you or someone you’re praying for to be saved!


At this point, I’m thinking neither, but we’ll see.

Thank you for joining this journey with me.

If you read my post,“Crossing the Finish Line”, then you heard about my story on LITNET called, “A Digital Age Courtship”. If you didn’t read that post or even if you did…

A Digital Age Courtship

The link below takes you directly to that story. ENJOY!


Last Fall, with a burning desire to see my dreams become reality. I found a writing contest to enter advertised on Instagram. The contest was through LitNet, which is like WattPad where writers publish their books one chapter at a time. I look at this style of instant publication as live-tweeting for bookworms.

I had two categories to enter. One, “College Campus Romance” or two, “Small Town Mystery Suspense”. I never wrote a mystery before, that option was out. When you make goals to accomplish anything, you have to plan for things where the odds are in your favor and not where the odds are stacked against you.

True, I hadn’t truly wrote a romance, but I did watch a lot of Rom-Coms growing up. Falling in love is still on my agenda for life that needs to be experienced, but I figured my imagination could give me enough to use for a fictional story.

I planned it all out. I would write a book about a modern day courtship, because in all honesty, that is my fantasy. I want to meet a guy, who becomes my friend, then one day he asks me out, and we date with the intention to marry. Now, that doesn’t mean we HAVE TO get married, but I’m not dating to see if we will become something. I plan to date because we are something and we want to grow deeper in relationship.

Get this— I designed the cover, developed my characters, created a fictional world based in the real world, wrote a detailed outline of all the chapters, and I had five months to write my book. I wrote barely five chapters.

I fell for the foolish lie… “No matter how hard I try… I’ll never win the contest.”

All the ambition in me to complete the story was gone. Clutch time arrived, with three weeks left to submit my completed work, and the way I can crank out words I could have maybe finished if I pushed myself… but I didn’t. I think I gave up the second I entered the contest, when the first negative thought creeped into my mind, “Your story won’t get enough attention to win.”

The way the contest worked, to be eligible, was that it needed to fit the theme of the contest, be 50,000 words or more, and get a lot of views and reads from the public. I knew I could write to the theme. I knew I could write 50,000 words. However, I failed to believe people wanted to read my work.

As a Christian should I have low self-esteem if I am abiding in Christ Jesus? Like, look at King David. He was probably ignored by his father, and treated poorly by his brothers, yet he wrote psalms saying the “the Lord’s glory is my glory”… does it sound like he had a low self-esteem?

Since I’ve been thinking about my identity in Christ lately. I am reading the psalms, that we know David poured out from his heart, and I am looking at the scriptures of how God views the nation of Israel as His children, and I am wondering why I ever think so lowly of myself?

Is it because the people who where my examples to guide me in life put me on the back burner too much? Is it because I was picked on for being overweight and wearing boy clothes? It it because I equate what I do as the full representation of who I am?

There are so many scriptures to support we should never think lowly of ourselves. (We shouldn’t think too highly of ourselves either.) In John 3:16, scripture is clear that Jesus was sent and He died for every human being in the world, past, present, and future. By choosing to believe that He came for me, that He died and bled for me, and rose again so that I may have eternal life… that should at the very least let me think, “I am just as capable as anyone else, of winning this contest.”

Reading the word more and more and renewing my mind (in other words) thinking about myself in light of what scripture says, I ought to have amazing thoughts like, “I can win this contest because the Lord makes me victorious!”

Granted, I think people can start confessing the Word of God without believing it, therefore, those fake confessors won’t get nada!

Read Exodus, Deuteronomy, and Numbers in the Bible. God delivered Israel out of B O N D A G E… He did miracles in front of them all the time, and so often they wanted to go back to slavery and idolatry, instead of remaining free. God moved in Israel’s life not because they believed, but because of His covenant and His faithfulness to Abraham. I can see why, when Jesus made a way for Gentiles to come to the Father, that God said all we have to do is believe. I don’t have scripture to back this up, but reading between the lines I’m going out on a limb to say, He must have been crushed age to age. Doing all these signs and wonders to bring people into relationship with Him and they would turn their back on Him for a false god made out of wood or for the doctrines of demons.

Belief will get you further than proof.

This is going to be an eccentric example, but transgenders are a great one. It doesn’t matter what science says… that you are either biologically male or biologically female. People are convinced, regardless of their biology, they are what they think they are. Not only will the medical field help mutilate their bodies, to help them appear to be what they feel, the law will allow them to change genders, and the society supports their beliefs, when the society uses the desired gender pronouns transgender people identify with.

God designed us. I wonder why He allows imagination and belief to be more powerful in our psyche than reality. Is it because He created all we know out of nothing? That because He saw us in entirety out of nothingness, and since we are made in His likeness, it is when we see something in our mind, we create the spark for it to become reality?

We live in the age if it sounds good, which means we think it is good, or we think it is true, we share it before we fact check it? Talk about living in a made-up world?

In Proverbs, the book on Wisdom in the Bible, it says that life and death is in the power of the tongue. Before the tongue can utter a word, you have to think about what you’re going to say. Proverbs also says, what a person thinks about that person is that in their heart. Heart in Hebrew is really more this concept of the heart and the mind being one. (I can’t remember if I googled that heart fact or if I learned it at Bible College, look up a trusted Jewish source on the meaning of the “heart” in the Torah… your mind will be blown!)

I am clearly past the point of winning this contest because it is long over with, but I still have a story to write. Who knows! Maybe Kirk Cameron or the Erwin Brothers will stumble across my story on LitNet and want to make it into a movie and it’s wildly more successful than “I Can Only Imagine” and “God’s Not Dead” put together! Maybe, in the secular world, it’s the best ROM-COM of the YEAR! Better than “Crazy Rich Asians”!

Joyce Meyers talks about the power of your thoughts. She said she’d rather believe God for a lot rather than for a little.

Abraham probably wouldn’t have believed enough for Isaac, if he never believed for descendants as vast as the stars in the sky… (now he has them). David probably never wouldn’t have made it to kingship, if he didn’t believe every victory He had came from the Lord. Paul probably would have died from being stoned the first time, if he didn’t believe it was his purpose in the earth to ready the Body of Christ for the return of Jesus.

What we believe fuels our drive in pursuit of our dreams.

I am crossing the finish line into traditional, New York Best Selling Author, publishing ONE. STORY. AT. A. TIME.

Please go to LitNet and check out “A Digital Age Courtship”. If you have a LitNet account, please follow me. If you like what you read, share the link! Pray for me. If you need prayer, drop a comment below and I will place that request before God in my prayer time and believe with you.

I just want to encourage you. The dreams you have burning like a fire in you, more than likely are in you, because God designed you to live out those dreams. If you aren’t certain your dreams are God-given, I pray right now, for whoever is reading this, that God makes your dreams clear and that He won’t let you escape from completing them. Souls are attached to your destiny. No dream is too small, too big, too silly, or too impossible to achieve when God is in it.

If you have a desire to work for Disney and you believe in Jesus, I pray you go in equipped and get favor to put something out there filled with light, love, and truth for the end time harvest!

If you dream of becoming a teacher but have no money to go to school, I believe God will get that education for you in ways you never thought He would. You knew He could, but you never believed He would.

And maybe I haven’t said a single thing you’re dreaming of… Maybe you have never heard anyone dream of what you dream of doing one day! I’m excited because I know I’m going to read your name in a history book somewhere. You got a dream that will revolutionize the world, and on behalf of the Kingdom, even if no one notices until you’re past your prime or you’re gone. You go do what God designed you to do!

Okay, I’m done now. AMEN! Below is the link to my story on LITNET— “A Digital Age Courtship”.


Let’s journey on the faith track for a bit.

I’m not a stranger to Jesus, the Son of Man. As I read miracles in the Bible I believe He can still do miracles. I’ve asked and I’ve seen God work miracles in my life…

Yet, lately, I’m having a really hard time believing God for some things right now.

My dad needs a miracle.

My mom needs a miracle.

My brother needs a miracle.

My grandmother needs a miracle.

My uncle needs a miracle.

My cousins need a miracle.

My best friends need miracles.

At this point, I could care less if God ever gives me another personal miracle.

I’m super analytical. So immediately, I think about all the reasons why these miracles haven’t happened.

My father doesn’t believe God will help him.

My mother is on her own walk with God.

My brother is rebellious.

My grandmother is missing the mark on the call of God on her life.

My uncle is a prodigal.

My cousins need to be saved.

My best friends are going through tests and trials with the Lord.

Now, I admit I know nothing and I’m probably wrong, and if I am right… I saw Jesus work plenty of miracles for imperfect people. It was His perfection that healed them. He was obedient. He was in tune with the Holy Spirit. He was the vessel acting in faith and doing miracles.

And Apostle Paul is like one of my favorite examples in the Bible, but he said to imitate Christ Jesus over him.

Lately, I’ve thought about how Jesus was always praying and pressing into the presence of heaven. And we can say this was/is so easy for Him because He was/is God, but He clearly lived a human life. What if He ran to God in prayer because the presence of heaven was like eating a whole carton of ice cream and an entire pizza? What if being in God’s presence was where He ran when the temptations and anxieties of life became too much for Him?

Then if He could do it, can’t we then?

That’s why we read the Word and we believe every bit of it in our hearts, right? So nothing in this world can satisfy like the presence of heaven?

Now, we must be careful to not covet heaven that we become spiritual fruit loops and nobody on earth can relate to us. Pastor Rod Parsley says that we shouldn’t be so heavenly minded that we’re no earthly good.

When we go into heaven over load mode, we’re trying to escape the woes of this life, and Jesus didn’t set that example. He showed that we charge the troubles of this life and we let heaven become the remedy in the midst of that situation.

I have a knack for seeming like I know what to do in any given situation. But when it comes to kingdom business, I don’t have a clue without God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit giving the directions, dropping the revelation, and showing up and showing off!

Yes, I can easily keep a defeated mindset and wonder if these miracles for my family will ever happen, or I can read the Word, and pray to God, and trust in time these miracles will happen on this side of heaven, down here on earth…

It’s easy to type this confession. And it won’t be a challenge in my heart, if I set my gaze in the right place… on Jesus and the Word, not my circumstances.

Now, it’s perfectly healthy to acknowledge when I’m sad and when I’m hurt and when I’m angry, but the key is not to moved by the emotions to the point it determines my reaction. I need to respond like a soldier in God’s army, which often means going to God in prayer or in worship. I don’t need to reach for the remote or eat a box cookies or eat two dinners in the middle of the night… My comfort needs to be found in the Comforter (the Holy Spirit), not in my comfort foods.

TV, Movies, and Food are what I run to sometimes instead of the presence of God. They never fully satisfy like God does… More and more I’m running to Him instead of these things that only offer temporary relief. I love music too, so I try not to run to my worship playlist.

I wrote this whole thing fighting tears and listening to a bunch of strife in my household tonight… maybe I ran away from the chaos into this blog post searching for peace… All I know, is that I want lives to be changed and transformed. I want to see the Gospel manifest in the lives of those I love. Not to prove that Jesus is real, because I know He is real. Simply because I want people to be free, for that is the only way we should live, and it is an injustice to be chained in bondage our whole lives.

Pray for me saints as I pray for anyone who reads this post.

If you’re not a believer, I think you’re on your way to becoming one. Why put it off, when you can believe RIGHT NOW?!

Truth is hell is real. Truth is hell will be eternity for those who don’t choose Jesus the Messiah in this life. You can ask God later why hell is real. But today, you can believe that Jesus died paying for your sins, sins that Adam and Eve passed down to you through their disobedience. And you can give up your nature that is self-seeking and self-destructive, and undergo a life-long process of how to become humbly, selfless to the point you look like a mini Jesus to people. The Holy Spirit will empower you to live such a life. You’ll have ups and you’ll have downs, but through it all, you’ll know all is well. And on the other side of heaven, in eternal paradise, you’ll enjoy forever with God, me, and many more saints. All you have to do right now, is believe Jesus came for you, died for you, and when He rose from the dead made you alive with Him forever…

That was easy, right?!

I suggest reading the Bible now. The Hoy Spirit will teach you everything you need to know. So will a great pastor at a church you’re meant to be at, and as will other leaders and mentors and fellow saints.

Your fellow brothers and sisters in Christ are as broken as you, so when one hurts your feelings in church, go to them and resolve the issue. Take the high road and let it go. Don’t expect them to take your side. Like, forgive them in your heart before you go to them.

Then next, find out why you’re on this planet and what God has called you to do. Then go through the process to fulfill your destiny. No one can say how long it will take, but enjoy the ride day by day because you only get one life. Also, you’ll never fully arrive, so you might as well enjoy the little things as they unfold into bigger things!

And when you reach a point, when you don’t see God coming through in some areas… don’t fall for the lies or base the possibilities on your feelings. Like God came through for Abraham and Sarah, God will come through for you!

Also, your actions are important. Think very carefully before you do anything, unless, you believe God is instructing you… His guidance you just do, and trust me, how things turn out will show you if it was God or not. In my personal experience, it is mostly God.

So what do you do… when you can’t see the miracles? Serious question, drop your thoughts in the comment section.

Much love,




I’m not sure what to do with the Story Sunday Series: Elle… therefore, when I figure that out, she will be back and then her story will be completed.

For now, get ready for ID SYNTHESIS. A dystopian, sci-fi story anyone can sink their teeth into!

Thanks for stopping by and reading. Not sure what to look at, check out my personal favorite Story Sunday Series: Bussing It.

Much love,